Hello,
I am Mohan Nair

On March 8, 1986, while a tree that was being cut uprooted and fell in the opposite direction, it was on to my body.Hearing my cry, the locals and the owner of the place came running and took me to the hospital. I spent 22 days in Kozhikode Medical College, yet the doctor did not recommend any major treatment. When my relatives enquired the reason, this is how the doctor replied “Friend, Mohanan’s spinal cord has been damaged, there is no point in treating him”.

I was born in an orthodox Nair family to KunjiKannan and Lakshmiamma as the third son of ten children.Because of poverty and other limitations at home, I had to drop out of school while I was in sixth standard. I worked as a daily wage labourer from the age of 12. I had worked from that age, and now I found myself restricted to a bed!. I could not even do my daily ablutions. I saw that I could not even move an inch forward in the journey of life and felt strangled and even felt that it would be better to die than live like this. My family viewed sickness and death as the manifestation of God’s anger and hence came to the conclusion that I was under the wrath of God. They became distressed on my account. The family came and took my wife away from me.

By the time I had completed 24 years, all my hopes and dreams were dashed, my family had abandoned me and my life was chained to a bed. Medical science had left me on my own. I cried out based on my traditional beliefs in God, but I did not get any relief. I was without hope and I had become an atheist. Even though eight months had passed after my accident, I was not able to sleep at night. Whatever suffering one can experience in a lifetime, I had experienced that.

I was lying waiting for death, when someone came into my life like an angel of the Lord. V.C Sebastin, whom we called “Babychayan” came to visit me to enquire about my health. I told him the hopelessness that was in my heart. Then he explained to me in four or five lines, “Son, do not tell that there is no God. You have not known the God who made the universe. You will experience and come to know that whatever you have believed were a myth. If you had known the true saviour, he would have given you forgiveness of sins,peace,joy,hope and eternal life”. I asked him immediately, who this saviour was?. He replied calmly, “Mohanan, It is Jesus Christ the only Saviour who came to this world to save sinners.Jesus is not an advocate for a particular religion, but he is God to any human who believes in Him. God is Spirit. He who is Spirit dwells inside people.The Bible says about him, that He is the Lamb of God who came to take away the sins of the world.”

When I heard this I laughed it off. I grew up in the Hindu religion which claimed to have 33 millions gods. I have called all of them and cried to all of them every night. Not only have I not received any answer or any comfort, I lived in the fear of death and was hopeless. Before leaving he prayed for me from his heart. One week after he had left, he sent me a Bible. I was somebody who spent a lot of time reading novels and so I decided to read the Bible, which I thought was the religious book of Christians. While reading I came across the gospel according to John Chapter 14 verse 6 which said that “ I am the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me” This verse touched my heart and opened my inner eyes. I also came across Revelation 3:19,20. These comforted my heart so much that it felt like that rain had fallen upon dry land. One night in October 1986, I was crying thinking about my misfortune and was half asleep, when I heard a voice which said “ Call upon the living God and be saved, or else you will eternally suffer in hell”.This voice continued to echo and I opened my eyes and looked around. I could not find anyone, only the darkness surrounded me. It was midnight and my elder brother and his family were asleep. I felt convinced that it was God who was speaking to me. I decided to pray once more to Jesus mentioned in the Bible who had died, was buried and had risen on the third day. All my sins that I had committed knowingly and unknowingly upto the age of 24 from the age of 5 was shown to me as if on a television screen. I had to admit that I was a sinner. I wept bitterly and repented. The crying lasted for more than 2 hours. I got convicted that it was for me too that Jesus had died on the cross and had become my justification by being raised from death. I believed that he would live inside those who believed in Him. Not only this, I who had not slept properly for the past 8 months because of my suffering, slept as if I had become unconscious. I woke up at 7 am. I was surprised to find that I who had no peace, had peace inside my heart. I who had sadness and grief, had joy inside me. I who had no hope, was filled with hope. I remembered the words of Christ “I give you my peace; I do not give it like the world does”.

To my brothers and sisters who are reading this. What I have described is my experiences as raw and real as it was. Even though I am paralaysed from my waist down. From that day I have been proclaiming the truth of the God who turned my suffering into a blessing. Not only that, I have visited and counseled 513 people from all over Kerala who are paralysed like me. For The past 16 years I have been running “Karunya Bhavan”, in Kaithachal panchayat near Koothuparambu in Kannur district of Kerala. There are 15 residents who stay here and are looked after and served by me and my family. All this takes place as per the plan of God. Along with this a church is gathering here and I lead it. There are lots of limitations. But we believe and trust in a God who is limitless.God bless you.